"老师也有推荐过我：《吸引力法则~梦想成真三步骤》这是第一次老师推荐的，里面的老师指定的作业让我习惯了纪录心情日记
《像心理学家一样思考》这是第二次看他的时候推荐的，当时我对爱情的想法有低潮
《最后的演讲》
《你可以再塔羅一點》这是逛书局看到的书，因为对塔罗牌渐渐有兴趣，就买来看看，是初级的塔罗牌书
《那些美好的时光》 这是第四次看老师的时候，老师有提到的内容，就去找来看看，里面也有很多启发，对小行老师的讲法更明白了."
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Monday, March 19, 2012
Letter#1
小行老師你好（叫老師會不會很奇怪？搞不好你還比我年輕？…）
那天跟你聊過以後，很多之前有意識無意識被掩埋的記憶都跑出來了……連續幾天都沒辦法睡得安穩（感冒更嚴重了）。我想，身心是聯繫的，所以身體才會下意識的逼著自己休息、審視。
或許我之前真的對大人/他人說的話照單全收，才會導致過了這麼久以後的現在覺得越來越沒人生目標。甚至曾想過不然去領養個孩子什麼的，逼著自己為了要對所領養的孩子負責而有人生目標（當然這是想想而已，除非我想家變……）
扯的是，我大學要讀什麼科系也是我媽說了算 =( 雖然幾年後他曾很自責的說當初應該 （*不是讓我自己選*） 讓我讀其他科系。超噴飯的說。
我想，應該從好些時間前就已經開始”隱性的叛逆“，有些工作上的或家裡的事，心裡超不認同可是還是唯唯諾諾的繼續，直到出搥時才在心裡想說”看吧，我就知道“，然後自己又得默默的把事情解決掉。現在我想，是不是可以勇敢的，把自己的想法用很有力量的言語來說服別人，如果不被接納，至少也曾經努力把自己的想法帶出來過。
接下來得開始新工作了，像你說的可能外邊的人會覺得我很有工作能力，竟然在這一兩天接到3個工作offer @.@。雖然還沒做選擇（因為一個是回到新加坡從事之前的行業，另外的是在新山轉換跑道後的行業），可是我相信之要我能平靜下來,聽聽大自然和宇宙的聲音及指引，做了決定就向前看吧！
一直延續下來的性格/個性，沒辦法一朝一夕改變。尤其對於家人，可能會更challenging 一些些（像我媽就跟我姐說，覺得我變了，因為我鼓勵我弟在還沒工作前去背包旅行或是出國當個義工，結果被我媽罵到半死……可能我不自覺的把自己辦不到的套在我弟弟身上，就像我媽把他的想法套在我身上一樣，真是惡性循環啊……）anyway，希望能夠更有效的和家人溝通，讓他們知道我的想法。這不容易，（尤其我思想可能已經distort 或壓抑太久）但希望還是能慢慢一點一點的做到。說真的我真的有怕10年後，像塔羅牌指示，還是一直不斷的伸手跟別人要”劍“，還是別人看著我有一堆讓人羨慕的成就卻一點也不開心，還是很孤單的不快樂。
孤獨是可以快樂的，只要找得到快樂的源泉。雖然感情的部分可能接下來會繼續空白一段日子，但是我覺得我現在應該做的是讓自己找到快樂的因子，才不會把不快樂傳染給另外一半的那個人。
吸引力法則那本書我很有興趣，不知道要預購會太遲了嗎？
那天跟你聊過以後，很多之前有意識無意識被掩埋的記憶都跑出來了……連續幾天都沒辦法睡得安穩（感冒更嚴重了）。我想，身心是聯繫的，所以身體才會下意識的逼著自己休息、審視。
或許我之前真的對大人/他人說的話照單全收，才會導致過了這麼久以後的現在覺得越來越沒人生目標。甚至曾想過不然去領養個孩子什麼的，逼著自己為了要對所領養的孩子負責而有人生目標（當然這是想想而已，除非我想家變……）
扯的是，我大學要讀什麼科系也是我媽說了算 =( 雖然幾年後他曾很自責的說當初應該 （*不是讓我自己選*） 讓我讀其他科系。超噴飯的說。
我想，應該從好些時間前就已經開始”隱性的叛逆“，有些工作上的或家裡的事，心裡超不認同可是還是唯唯諾諾的繼續，直到出搥時才在心裡想說”看吧，我就知道“，然後自己又得默默的把事情解決掉。現在我想，是不是可以勇敢的，把自己的想法用很有力量的言語來說服別人，如果不被接納，至少也曾經努力把自己的想法帶出來過。
接下來得開始新工作了，像你說的可能外邊的人會覺得我很有工作能力，竟然在這一兩天接到3個工作offer @.@。雖然還沒做選擇（因為一個是回到新加坡從事之前的行業，另外的是在新山轉換跑道後的行業），可是我相信之要我能平靜下來,聽聽大自然和宇宙的聲音及指引，做了決定就向前看吧！
一直延續下來的性格/個性，沒辦法一朝一夕改變。尤其對於家人，可能會更challenging 一些些（像我媽就跟我姐說，覺得我變了，因為我鼓勵我弟在還沒工作前去背包旅行或是出國當個義工，結果被我媽罵到半死……可能我不自覺的把自己辦不到的套在我弟弟身上，就像我媽把他的想法套在我身上一樣，真是惡性循環啊……）anyway，希望能夠更有效的和家人溝通，讓他們知道我的想法。這不容易，（尤其我思想可能已經distort 或壓抑太久）但希望還是能慢慢一點一點的做到。說真的我真的有怕10年後，像塔羅牌指示，還是一直不斷的伸手跟別人要”劍“，還是別人看著我有一堆讓人羨慕的成就卻一點也不開心，還是很孤單的不快樂。
孤獨是可以快樂的，只要找得到快樂的源泉。雖然感情的部分可能接下來會繼續空白一段日子，但是我覺得我現在應該做的是讓自己找到快樂的因子，才不會把不快樂傳染給另外一半的那個人。
吸引力法則那本書我很有興趣，不知道要預購會太遲了嗎？
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Sunday, March 13, 2011
am i having alzheimer's?
i can't remember my newly-set password for my company email account (damn system that requires you to change password every 3 months), yet i still remember the password for this blog.
Monday, October 04, 2010
I post it here so N years down the road, I will read it and laugh at myself..
- When I say I don’t really like, it doesn’t mean that I hate.
- I forgive but I can’t really forget, especially if it’s associate with strong feelings. Yes, call it p-e-t-t-y. Whatever.
- I may appear extrovert to some but I’m an introvert. And definitely a low profile one. =p
- I am easily annoyed. Likewise, easily amused.
- I turn a bit crazy if I’m overly not enough sleep. Or after too much –OH group in my bloodstream.
- I can listen to a particular song that I like for 500X without getting bore. Same goes with drama and movies.
- I hate people who shake their leg.
- I hate people who backstabbed more than any other things.
- I adore anyone who is willing to do little silly things with/ for me. That's so awww…
- I am a boring person. I might have agoraphobia.
- I don’t really believe in ‘time heals’. Probably because I believe things won’t just get heal by themselves. Or probably because I haven’t live till that long.
- I am a typical Cancerian but without the trait of having good memory. I have selective memory.
- I’m having and always got static shock with other hairy people. I am charged.
- I have weird but nice name that most people fail to pronounce it correctly.
- And even after I correct them, some will still pronounce it wrongly.
- I keep a blog for >3 years with <10 people know about it until recently.
- I don’t really have those ‘lucky draw’ luck but it was said that I ‘won my laptop from e-bay’, that I chose to ignore, LMAO, and forgive the story maker.
- I strongly believe in what comes around goes around.
- For things that I didn’t do/ being maligned/ mistaken at, if I didn’t explain, it doesn’t mean silence agree, I just don’t bother to ‘coz you are not some important people to me.
- Else, I would clarify.
- I may have a lot of principles that I adhere to yet not agreed by majority. You can choose not to agree, but you can’t force me to think alike as you.
- I miss my angels back home no matter I’m in Aussie or Singapore. Well, they are my families and friends.
*well, less and less privacy on fb.. thus this =s
- I forgive but I can’t really forget, especially if it’s associate with strong feelings. Yes, call it p-e-t-t-y. Whatever.
- I may appear extrovert to some but I’m an introvert. And definitely a low profile one. =p
- I am easily annoyed. Likewise, easily amused.
- I turn a bit crazy if I’m overly not enough sleep. Or after too much –OH group in my bloodstream.
- I can listen to a particular song that I like for 500X without getting bore. Same goes with drama and movies.
- I hate people who shake their leg.
- I hate people who backstabbed more than any other things.
- I adore anyone who is willing to do little silly things with/ for me. That's so awww…
- I am a boring person. I might have agoraphobia.
- I don’t really believe in ‘time heals’. Probably because I believe things won’t just get heal by themselves. Or probably because I haven’t live till that long.
- I am a typical Cancerian but without the trait of having good memory. I have selective memory.
- I’m having and always got static shock with other hairy people. I am charged.
- I have weird but nice name that most people fail to pronounce it correctly.
- And even after I correct them, some will still pronounce it wrongly.
- I keep a blog for >3 years with <10 people know about it until recently.
- I don’t really have those ‘lucky draw’ luck but it was said that I ‘won my laptop from e-bay’, that I chose to ignore, LMAO, and forgive the story maker.
- I strongly believe in what comes around goes around.
- For things that I didn’t do/ being maligned/ mistaken at, if I didn’t explain, it doesn’t mean silence agree, I just don’t bother to ‘coz you are not some important people to me.
- Else, I would clarify.
- I may have a lot of principles that I adhere to yet not agreed by majority. You can choose not to agree, but you can’t force me to think alike as you.
- I miss my angels back home no matter I’m in Aussie or Singapore. Well, they are my families and friends.
*well, less and less privacy on fb.. thus this =s
Sunday, July 18, 2010
To my grandma
You are the only gran that I remember as kids.
You are the only gran that see us going through as kids, teenage, went to primary/secondary/tertiary school.
You are the only gran who pampered us with all the good food in Kluang - yaw char kuey, kopi-o, char kuay teow.
You are the only gran who never scolded us when we were too noisy as kids.
You are the only gran that I know much stories of - difficulties when grandpa passed away/business not going well etc.
You are the only gran I slept together with as kids, although I used to hate it coz there were too many mozzies and roaches in the shop.
It's heartbreaking to see you having see the uncles fighting over the shop lot.
It's heartbreaking to see you had stroke.
It's heartbreaking to see you developing senile dementia and not recognizing us, although you seem happier.
It's heartbreaking that you never travel enough, never enjoy life enough when you were healthier.
I will love and remember you always.
Rest in peace.
And find grandpa whom I never see.
You are the only gran that see us going through as kids, teenage, went to primary/secondary/tertiary school.
You are the only gran who pampered us with all the good food in Kluang - yaw char kuey, kopi-o, char kuay teow.
You are the only gran who never scolded us when we were too noisy as kids.
You are the only gran that I know much stories of - difficulties when grandpa passed away/business not going well etc.
You are the only gran I slept together with as kids, although I used to hate it coz there were too many mozzies and roaches in the shop.
It's heartbreaking to see you having see the uncles fighting over the shop lot.
It's heartbreaking to see you had stroke.
It's heartbreaking to see you developing senile dementia and not recognizing us, although you seem happier.
It's heartbreaking that you never travel enough, never enjoy life enough when you were healthier.
I will love and remember you always.
Rest in peace.
And find grandpa whom I never see.
Thursday, July 08, 2010
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